"Suffer the little children to come unto me, and forbid them not: for of such is the kingdom of God." Mark 10:14This memorial website was created to remember our dearest Nevaeh Grace Siefker who was born in Ohio on January 19, 2009 and passed away on January 19, 2009. You will live forever in our memories and hearts.
Nevaeh is my second angel baby to fly up to heaven, she was born at 20 wks gestational age and was just too little to stay in this world. She kicked me up until the minute she was born so she was a little fighter! The drs tried everything to get my contractions to stop but after 12 hours nothing was working so they went ahead and let me deliver! She was 10 inches long and weighed only 10 ounces, but she was so beautiful! She fought for almost 5 hours to live but it was just too much for her little body! We may not have gotten to know her very well or change one of her diapers or anything but I want everyone to know just how much we all loved her! When I found out I was pregnant I was so excited, I thought my life would finally start changing and things would finally start working out in my favor! I found out that I was having a little girl five days before Nevaeh was born and I just couldn't hold my excitement in because I had just lost my 2 yr old daughter in March of 2008. I still feel that I was blessed though just to be able to feel her move inside me and then to hold her the day she was born. It broke my heart that I couldn't keep her and I had a lot of anger towards God because He now has two of my daughters and all I have are two flowers off their caskets, its just not fair! I know God has something planned for me though and thats why He needed my babies, but it still hurts and breaks my heart! I thought I felt incomplete after my first daughter, Alexus, died; but now I do more than ever! Anyways, Nevaeh Grace I didn't know you for very long but I loved you so so much and I really hope you didn't suffer baby!
Oh mother, my mother;
I touch your tears, invisible fingers soothing your skin; I know you think of me so often in the day, in the night, in your dreams, going into an empty nursery knowing I'll never be there, but I am. . .in your heart, in your soul, I shall always be; for you gave so unselfishly of yourself. Inside of you, you created such a world for me, a world of laughter, of love, of sadness, of sorrow; every emotion people come to know you shared with me. And even though I may never feel your arms around me: I felt your heart beating, like a lullaby, singing me to sleep and your spirit giving me a safe haven already protecting me, nurturing me, preparing me of things to come. But sometimes the journey of life pulls souls apart and yes, I had to go on to another place. I wish I could stay, I wish this was a decision I could make and I know you do too. Know this wherever you are: I will always remember that yours was the first love, the first joy, the first soul I will ever know; you gave me the courage to go on in my journey, I hope I can do the same for you. Your heart beat will always call me to you.
Love,
Nevaeh Grace
Oh father, my father;
Close your eyes and feel me near, keep me inside your heart let me live in your soul. You see through tears the things we will never do; running across the fields of my youth, games never played, but it is not gone those dreams you hold so close for I live on in every child you see; little ones standing alone. . .lost or laughing in a playground, swinging so high, touching the tree tops that is I wanting just to love. Feel my happiness in the song of a bird; see my sorrow in my mother, hold her close forever feeling your strength, for there will be one to come behind me whether through God's grace or from a different calling a child chosen through His hand. For in darkness, a light will appear even if it is just the dawn signaling a new beginning and as you gather my mother to your heart release your tears, let the healing begin and discover that I am here in your dreams, in your tomorrows. Every rainbow is the path home and if you should stumble I am the wings that shall lift you.
Love,
Nevaeh Grace
Bildspel
Senaste Minne
This is a day I will never forget!!! I was praying Nevaeh would not be born yet. When I got a phone call at 1:30 in the morning I knew it wasn't good. Misty told me that she was having bad contractions and baby is in position to be born. I got dressed as fast as I could and rushed up to St. Ritas hospital. I knew when I got there we were in for a long night. I tried to make my daughter feel as comfortable as I could, I probably drove her nuts more then anything. But there is nothing worse the watching your child in pain like she was. All I could think is if they get contractions to stop she is going to go through all the pain again when she delivers. I know misty was so scared of losing another baby ,and it just broke my heart to know if they didn't stop contractions that she would lose another little girl. I'm not sure why misty has to go through all the pain she is and so much death in the last year. Sometimes I wonder if it is the kind of life I live ,that makes my daughter pay for my sins. I would of done anything I could for my daughter or granddaughter that night,but I knew all I could do was pray she wasn't going to be born that night. But God obviously had other plans for Nevaeh Grace. Such a beautiful name and beautiful baby ,she was so tiny . But the first thing I noticed was that she looked like misty, But they told us right away she was way to little to survive. Her little lungs were not developed yet, she didn't take a breath when she was born either. She was determined to come out and see her mommy and feel her mommy hold her,before she went to heaven to have the FATHER hold her. So now Lexi and Nevaeh are together up there playing. This is a day I will never forget !!!!! Now I just pray that God heals my daughters heart and gives her peace . Because my pain stops when my daughters pain stops. It just killed me because she has been through so much and it just wasn't fair for her to lose another daughter and it hasn't even been a year since she lost her first daughter. So my heart breaks for her and I just pray God see's her pain and blesses her in another way. Misty just remeber If I could of done anything to stop your pain I would of. I know I have to go back to work Monday but if you need me I will be there for you as much as I possibly can be , I love you and I love them Grandbabies!!! Just know that Lexi now has her little sister up there with her now that will watch over her.
The first time I held you I looked down at you and you were moving your eyebrows like you wanted to open your eyes and look at me! I fell in love with you at that moment and everytime I close my eyes I see that! I miss you kicking me in the belly and making me have to run to the bathroom all the time! It just doesnt feel right not being able to feel you in my belly or to be able to hold you in my arms! I know God is holding you in His arms though and I know your with your big sister! I\'m blowing you both big kisses! You girls took part of my heart away! Your brother asked me if we could live up in heaven with his two sisters he loved you very much too and he never even got to meet you!
Senaste Kondoleanser
| Auntie to Baby Raymond Hentges |
So sorry |
January 23, 2009 |
I would just like to say I'm so sorry for your loss. While I've never experienced the loss of a child of my own, my nephew was stillborn in 2007 at 37 weeks gestation. It came as a such a shock. I wish I could tell you the pain goes away, but I still haven't been able to let go, and he wasn't even my child and it was over a year ago. Just try to hang in there and I can only hope that you have an extremely supportive family around you.
God Bless!
Chantel
